heyho....
just came back this mornin at 9....
lets start from the beginning where ive been...
Sunday
in the afternoon, just cant stay home cos deres just too much things going on in my mind..
headed out to workplace to chill, check schedule....
tot of blogging dere cos brought lappy along but batt died..
so just walk around and meet my colleague..
imran called me asking to me lepak at the usual with usual mates...
so went dere bout 9pm??
once reached dere, just dont have that sort of mood...
just sit back, and chill.... laugh when the start to go crazy.. as usual....
still, those things in my mind is still dere....
until its like 12, everybody start to go except fer me, ann, im, mizan, alwee, my colleague..
when theres little people, all this shits on my mind start to take controll...
out of a sudden, i brokedown.... i dont know y, tears start to roll....
took my ciggies n my phone, went to sit alone somewhere....
bfore that.. my phone was first playing "shes gone".. then its changes to "mungkiri janji"..
that song have lots of meaning bhind it...
will put it on me blog soon ok....
ok.... i continously played that song and sat alone....
when im and ann came...
ann didnt know anythin..
the only people i trust on telling is Revolt*....
*(coming soon to know)
im told me to tell ann wat happen....
so i told im to walk away...
now i dare to admit that im weak when it comes to love...
i told ann everythin...
from what i see, what i heard, what i said...
A-Z....
for ur info... ann is my closest to the closest bro....
we undrstan each other wen we're in pain...
so yea... he was shocked and share the same feel of wat i felt...
ANGER...
until one part.... he cried telling me somthing....
which made me really shocked and really brokedown...
not to be mentioned to anyone out of us....
to summerise it all... yeah im mad....
so aft that.. its bout 2.30, we proceed to macd at tamp int since i wanna use my lappy..
theres just no power point... such a fuck up macd....
so... we proceed to a prata shop to have our feast...
our budget is on such a thin string.....
we walk here and dere....
so we took off frm macd bout 3 and reach the prata shop bout 3.30 or 3.45...
had our meal and slack dere.....
wenever i walk, i totally ferget bout everything...
wen i sit dwn n kept quite, thts wen all probs start to come....
took off frm the place bout 5.15am and walk to ann's place to slack...
reach dere bout 6.15am....
slack at hes place till 9 and went home....
problems after problem starts to come....
1.bout the major prob....
2. barista olympic is coming n lack or practice..
3. rock competition coming 2 weeks aft my olympic n nt tht prepared..
4. family.......
bath aft i reach hm wen mama call me to sit dwn and talk....
fine... i sat down...
all i could say, we really had a heart to heart talk....
we cried talking to each other bout the issues....
i told her everythin tht i had kept in my heart fer so long....
we took turn to talk...
i talk first n she listen while crying...
than... vice-versa......
and finally....
mama admit that since i dare to talk to her in that manner, she said im mature enough...
mature enough to look aft myself, and start to realise, now im much more maturer....
ok... flashback to the time im telling ann the story,
he told me... fuck everythin...
ur such a damn mature guy that can still handle this thing eventhough its hard on u...
i wont wanna admit anything...
thats wat i was told by the 2 person i really cared n realise me for who i am...
now... theres only a third person to realise.....
hmmph....
trust me, im gonna make u really shock when the time comes...
idk.... mayb 280509 aft 6.......
the place is yet to decide......
just wait cos i gt a huge surprise coming up specially for u....
i think till here is enough....
its been a long post n im getting ready to go ann's place...
my colleague is dere....
so yea..... working later....... got to rest cos need to train alot later.....
au revoir.......
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