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Thursday, June 28, 2007

harloo harloo harloo......
im so damn tired.....
had my cross country jus now at bdok reservoir park n youth day carnival in school...

today was damn fun in schl...
durin cross country was damn bored of course but i mix aroun wit 4H guys
bcos most of my classmates r in schl havin their inter-house events....
den wen back to schl n hav da inter-house performance sume...
we r all separated sitting in our houses... n of course my house hav kecoh2 people...
we r da noisies group dere... shoutin n laughin out loud....
people all laugh listenin to our jokes n crappy behaviour which made me enjoy really much...
we finish schl aroun 3 jus now... okla...
i went hm straight aft schl jus to sleep... damn tired....
but i really enjoy today's event very much uh..... it was da most funnes event....

okok..... guess wat, filzah wan a break...
i cant say much uh... all i can say is up to her...
everything goes fer me.... of course i dun wan to let her go la but if she choose it dat way den
i cant say much....
even if i break up wit her, im goin to stay single...
i noe most of u guys tink i cant make it but trust me, im goin to prove u guys wrong....
all im goin to do is wait fer dayah no matter how long it takes....
im seriously goin to stay single n all i want to be my grl is dayah... dats all....
i laid my eyes alot on her jus now.... i duno whether she realise it or nt bt so wat.. atleast i can see her is enough....
cant say whether does she laid eyes on me or nt....

okok nvm.... goin jamming tomorrow which is today (thursday) with
my bro D.B n anwar... learnin how to play da drum....
anwar want to train fer his gig dis saturday n wan to play with my bro to catch up da tune..

i guess im goin to rest now... schoolin today....
wahhhhhh..............
okok....
nitey nite....
taking care n take care of ur rship......

*~=BoY_BaDdY=~*

Siraj Kasturi [1:51 AM]

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

salamz salamz to all.....

nw im at anwar usop place....

jus go here to chill cos so bored uh at hm like fuck....

okok... today n ystrdae ok uh... bole dikate kn ni aru alik dari schl...

tdi kt skool ade cheerleadin...

n congrats to hidayah for leadin her firebalze to victory...

happy n proud fer her...

bt too bad im nt hers to hug n kiss for winning...

da stress of tinking of her is still dere... really cant get rid of it....

wonder enuff y...

bt i jus cant get da ans...

she hates me to da core...... haiyo....

i guess nw she belong to da design group PrObLeM ChILd...

its a design group of her brother -in-law....

she hav been goin out with them when i probit her last time...

but nw, im everythin go... i dun care much of wat she wan to do cos who m i to control her life..

i wan to join da group bt I DUN HAV A LICENSE!!!!

wakakakakaka.....

otey otey.....

i guess till here first....

mayb i'll blog again ltr at night if im nt tired uh....

kk... taking care n take of ur relationship wit anyone.....

*~=BoY_BaDdY=~*

Siraj Kasturi [6:21 PM]

Monday, June 25, 2007

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Siraj Kasturi [12:41 AM]

Sunday, June 24, 2007

salamz salamz too all readers....

haiz.... as usual.. im stressin out....
im so stuck of hidayah....
filzah act as if she dun even cared bt i noe deep in her she's sad...
i love her... but i love dayah more...

i noe to certain people, im stupid....
i hav a such a better grl like filzah, y wud i still wan to chase aft dayah....
deres so many reasons...
but i only share it with people whom i trust n close to....
i cant post it here as its too personal....
all i can say is, i still love n care for dayah.....

i went to her place da other day to pay a visit to ibu as she had jus done with her operation..
wen i enter her room, dayah was dere sleepin...
ibu told me to wake her up which i did...
all she ever said aft she woke up is, "asl dier dtg... menyebok jek...."
i was upset but i didn say much as i was dere to visit ibu n nt her....
all da way, she was nt in da mood n didn even talk to me.....
i cant do anythin.... aft she went out to study, i talk to ibu for a while...
ibu told me dat dayah was mad at me n she wud be mad wen she sees my face...
like duh im upset but i didn say much la...
all i said to ibu is dat, its all up to dayah... i cant force her to like me...
i hav to earn her trust n liking....

im goin to post a song liric which i was told to be a song dat dayah like...
its a mly song uh... n da song is da first on my player bside here.....
u can hear it while readin da lirics....

i guess till here onli my post will be....
i need to sleep... bsok skola!!! argh!!!!
okok.. nitey nitey....

*~=BoY_BaDdY=~*

Siraj Kasturi [11:58 PM]

Thursday, June 21, 2007

day by day is pass.....
my stress is still accompanyin me along da way....
im seriously stuck....
y must dis always happen to me.....

i ask dayah y cant dere be peace between us....
n da ans is," i dunno.. i just hate u..."
i noe ive done alot of mistakes towards her but y must she continue to aviod me....
i want to make up for it but y am i nt given da chance.....
i noe la she has totally given up hope with me.... but y.....
the fact is, ya, ive been repeatin dis alot of times at dis blog...
i love her..... i love her more den i love filzah...

i jus wish i can turn back time n prove to her dat im still worth of her guy...
bt too bad, dere isnt anymore chances....
i hope she reads this n realise everythin....
but da reaction she wud give is only,"wateva, bobal konek"
y cant she stop n tink for a while of da words n da past between me n her....

like wat ibu said to me,"both of u want to show ur ego towards each other"
i noe its true but i dun show much ego twards her nowadays....
weneva she try to contact me in anyway nomatter on msn or da phone,
i treat her extra kind n nt blastin of my temper or ego weneva she tried to make me...
i try to control myself as hard as i can jus so she realise it but no i dun tink so....

i tink jus till here....
i shall to blog again ltr.....

*~=BoY_BaDdY=~*

Siraj Kasturi [2:52 PM]

harloo harloo harloo......
okok...
i guess filzah is mad at me or upset aft readin my previous post...
im so sorry... dis is where i can let it out n let people read....

to tell da truth.... yea.. my love for hidayah is still here....
it has nt shed a bit although im with filzah....
my brain is goin haywire....
im so confused which to choose....
dayah kept on tellin me to go to filzah n juz forget bout her...
for filzah, i guess its da opposite of dayah....

ouh wat must i do...
im really confused...
i'll blog again ltr.....

*~=BoY_BaDdY=~*

Siraj Kasturi [2:44 AM]

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

harloo harloo harloo.......
its a long time ever since i update my blog...
life is cool... ive met a new person in life...
her name is filzah amanina....

okok.... im so stress n confuse in life rite now AGAIN....
all da bitter sweet memories of me n hidayah came back n haunt me...
y must dis happen??
although i hav another person, my feelins for her still neva shed....
jus y.... ive been wonderin all while....
fuck sak.... my habit of smokin is becomin really bad rite nw....
im such a heavy smoker now compare to da past....
i can finish a pack within a day...

omg... wats happenin to me...
bt da fact is, ive change alot uh... no more mr ego or kerek anymore...
im becomin a nicer person nw... helpin people out wit their prob....

i guess i continue ltr uh... nt in da mood rite nw....

*~=BoY_BaDdY=~*

Siraj Kasturi [1:19 AM]