THE LAST MESSAGE TO HER
"is this the way for HIM to proof to me that he still loves me ? Or really really love me and can't afford to lose me ? Flirting with other girls, in friendster, msn or maybe handphone. Like i said, i won't care bout him contacting other girls anymore. I shall give his freedom and i want my freedom. Maybe, he contact other girls too. Well, i remembered clearly what i once asked him; "U ader contact ppn laen?" He changed topic and i asked again. He replied; "Guys would always be guys." So maybe, just maybe, he did now. I just can't accuse him anything without proof. But he have been accusing things without having any proof."
~AticcaLemon
well baby..... looks like you have been highlighting all this.... so ur saying that im flirting with other girls in friendster, msn or even handphone.. and even said you dont care i'm contacting other girls... well baby.. let me be straight forward with ya, people have kept on asking me about us here and there.. that's when i start adding them at msn... no flirting was going on b... i too am giving you your freedom.. u want to contact other guys or whatsoever regardless thru friendster, msn or phone... furthermore, im not even making a big fuss out of it... its like, u share ur probs with arep... i too share my probs with a FRIEND of mine who is a girl... and yea i said to you that guys will be guys.. but im not adapting to what im saying.... yea i do love you b.. i love you very much and don't wish to lose you n i can assure you that im not FLIRTING with anyone of my contacts.... i know i have been accusing you without proof.. but yet, i still kept my silence bout it... i know our relationship is ending soon due to the day and date you have choose upon... i just cant believe that its ending.... you choose to hate me, you choose to despise me over reasons that you think is true... you think that i have not change.. im still the same me... well b, i guess you have not pay attention to me enough.. if you realise, i did not stop you from doing anything you want... i did not even stop you from contacting anyone.. although i said i give you a time off and im being moody and all, i still did not let it out on you because i know your hurt at that point of time... yet this is the thanks that i get? u hate me? how great is that... although you avoid me and all, although im mad at you, i still control anger towards you b... i scold you in a good manner, yet you use vulgarities on me... i fought with you the other day thru sms, instead of using i and you, you choose to use "aku kau" plus vulgarities.... yet i control my language b.... the reason being is i respect you... but do i received the same respect i gave you? instead, hatred is what i received...
well.... we just settle our depts just now... what i meant is that, we broke up... what i said to you is that i want you to realise that you have change big time and i dont want you to forget bout your old mates who have been standing up for you rain or shine although you have found new friends who is much more fun to be with... b, i was thinking eversince just now, you said you hate me and dont love me anymore.. but why must you cry while sitting beside me in the bus just now.. when i asked, you said that you dont know and confuse whether or not you still love me... b, im giving you time to think back your decision whether or not you still love me... you can come up to me whenever your ready to tell me whether or not you still love me... if you still sticking to your decison that your not, im going to respect that and still treat you as a friend of mine... but if your answer is going to be the opposite, i wish to have you back.... as mine although you need time to think bout it... and no worries b.. by then, im sure i will be a change guy for you... well... i guess till here is enough... i wanna thank you for being my girl, being there for me whenever i need you... although we had our ups and downs, i just enjoy being with you.... just thanks... and you are sure going to be missed by me very much... with all the love i could possesed towards you, i will remain as your one knight shining armour...
~SirajKasturi
the first ever photo during our first ever date together in our relationship.....
`SirajKasturi(:
