heyho bitches and sluts....
if you have been checking out, i've been using full english and not shortcut..
got to perfect my english man...
my results already sucks... so got to work on it..
let start off with today... didn't do much..
had breakfast with mum and then proceed to the market then to aunt's house..
was shocked to see that my aunt's mum-in-law to be tight on to the wheelchair...
i was like in my heart,"ouh my god!" was really shocked man...
then after, went home and sleep....
i was not feeling well this few days...
mum said lack of sleep and i agree with her...
thon and slept late thinking bout me and her....
cried at night...
all those bad memories....
have not been having great times with her for this few days....
we had been quarelling and all that.....
thanks to the fire starter; ME...
had been crying too this few days... cried before jamming session that Tuesday...
cried at the chalet....
cried at home before sleep.... even, cried today and NOW...
i don't know wats goin to me.....
i am really fucked up.... i'm waiting calmly for her decision....
i don't want to trigger my anger at unecessary things....
i love her very much.... only god knows how much i love her...
this is the third time i fell in loved with someone deeply...
first would be Amalina(mel)...
second goes to Hidayah...
third.. and lastly... my baby Lemon i'm having currently.....
now shes confuse... don't know which to choose....
me or him...
i relying on my patience on awating her decesion....
if she chose me, i'm gladly to look after her with all my heart....
if she chose him, all the best i s all i can say...
as long as shes happy, i'm happy......
i've been saying that too many times... and without fail, i cried.... like now.....
i have no other to say.....
its all up to her right now..... i hope she will made a choice she would never regret.....
till here shall i blog...
mayb blog again later at night... i just cat take the pain...
take care bitches.............
i've sent her this message just now and it sure makes me cry typing it..
whatever i type is from the bottom of my heart to her....
she post it on her blog.. so i'm posting it on mine too....
"b... all i can say to you now is think about it wisely.. don't make da wrong decision that will make you regret..if you have to leave me, leave me then.... if you want to be with me, stick to me b... i am all prepared for the worst to come.... i just want you to be as happy as you can... and not because of me, you will be down... i want you to love me with all your heart and soul.....and not just partly.... i want you to be all mine... and not sharing it with someone else.... i am giving all the time you need b... i am willing to change myself for the better... for myself and even for you.... i don't want to impress other girls besides you b... your the only one i have left and i'm trying all the best i can to defend it from other people grab.... i love you b.. i love you......"
~=SirajKasturi=~
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