as i was sitting at the busstop, i came to think about my mistake...
tears starts rolling down my cheeks of my mistakes....
the reason being is that i think i'm taking things overboard...
Ignified Sins were all mad at me about just now...
like how i talk to maan...
like how i shouted at maan....
its not that i'm not happy with him in anyway...
i just don't....
i was feeling down just now....
he doesn't talk to me that much besides talking to mon...
its not that i'm stopping then from whatever...
but.....................
b did not talk to me at all just....
am i a stranger in her view??
that's why i'm being ignored????
along the way, she only interact with the rest of the gang and not me...
just why is that so b? just why?
when i asked her why, all she can said is that she don;t know and shrugged her shoulders..
i was all hurt just now and she didn't even care.....
just who the hell am i in her view?? just who???
its not that i'm being jealous or anythin but.............
maan thought that i think he is going to take b away from me...
sorry bro... you're taking it into the wrong.....
i didn't even think of it in that way......
when i want to talk to him, he don't wanna entertain me...
he just said,"just forget it la ehk!"
as we were walking back, not even a single sentence was brought up to me....
how great is that???
when i was at the busstop, i took the courage to send him a message....
saying,"k uh bro.. first things first.. im not thinking like what u think that im thinking..
im not thinking that u going to take her away from me.. i have no intention of thinking
that bro.. i apologiseif im being silly in anyway ur thinking.. second thing.. im pissed off at
u because u told her that im melampau un treating her.. to me, why cant u tell me first
before telling her so atleast i know.. thats all and nothing else.. im not thinking in anyway
of ur thoughts bro.. i respect u as a bro of mine.. how can i think overboard right.. hope
u understand.. aku nak bobal ngan kau depan2, kau tknk.. so there nothing else except
for this message.. i seriously apologise if i offend u in anyway bro.. ur he only person im left
to talk to n nobody else.. for the last time, im sorry..."
its a long message i know... but this is all i'm left to say to him.....
he replied me saying to read his blog...
and yeah, i did....
what was stated at his blog, made me into tears...
he state about all the sacrifice he's made for me and mon......
i really appriciate it...... and yet i treat him like shit??!!
what the fuck am i thinking........ fuck..............
but one things for sure......
my respect for him is going to be there no matter what...
kasman highlighted to me, as i asked him, is he mad at me...
he said yeah of the way i shouted at maan just now...
he told me.. although he's been rude to him, but respect must be present...
he also told me that i control mon too much...
he gave me advices and all...
hell yeah i took his advice....
thanks alot bro for the advices......
next up... burnt.....
he also said to me just like how kasman said to me.....
and yeah... i too took his advices.....
thanks alot to you too bro for being there for me....
for pampering me on the phone not to cry and all.....
i have thought of calling yana to settle of what she hate of me....
but that thought fade a way......
soon as that happens, she called me up....
she said that she read my blog and she does not hate me in anyway...
its just that the way i treat b....
thanks for the advices from you too beb.....
i don't know whether or not you heard me in tears....
shall stop being emo for awhile and talk about serious shits....
Ignified Sins WILL be taking the stage at Mahligai Manis on 6 april....
can't reveal the songs here as you guys will get to know only during the gig....
the rest of the information will be informed tomorrow by Mr. Black....
shall stop blogging here for now.....
damn exhausted by jamming session just now....
heading for the bed soon.....
i guess till here.......
once again, thanks to those people who gave me support and all.... just thanks.....
only god can repay you guys........
~=SirajKasturi=~
`SirajKasturi(:
