shes missing her someone....
i've met her someone before and even talked to him face to face...
i felt awkward talking to him....
in front of me, that someone and herself act as if nothings happening...
behind me.. only god knows....
i can't accuse of any reason cause i don't want to be the fire starter...
i love her so as that someone....
she have been posting about someone here and there...
she had been stating in her blog about someone had been giving her advises..
i don't want to compare myself with that someone...
i know that someone is much better then me... but i don't wanna talk about it to her....
i don't want her to be hurt because of me....
i don't want because of me i broke up with her...
i have been controlling my language when talking to her...
for the first time, i'm using my brain.....
i told her that whatever she wanna know that is in myheart and on my mind will be posted here..
i want to keep myself shut for the time being...
no more mr naggy...
the reason i love her is why i'm doing all this....
i don't want to hurt her in any way...
i've hurt her umple number of times from physical to mental...
i love her very much.....
and i don't wish to lose her....
if she chooses to be with someone, then go ahead...
it will be much better for her cause she get what she wants....
and they will be much happier......
i don't want her to be with me for the sake of making me happy and with force...
i want her to choose n be with me with all her heart and not because she feel pity towards me..
how i wish all this things will not happen....
although i hurt her, deep inside me, i love her with all my heart....
tears starts rolling down my cheeks....
not tears of joy but tears of sorrow....
now, only time is upon us... time for her to choose which one is right for her....
i'm giving her all the time she needs in the world....
i know behind me they have been contacting each other or even meeting each other...
of course i feel hurt....
but like i said... i shall just kept my silence till everythings over...
rosewood have been telling me to stay strong... prove to her i love her and win her heart back...
thanks for the support bro... i really appriciate it...
you have been really sacrificing alot for us bro...
thanks is all i can say... i don't know how to repay you man...
i love her very much man... i just love her very much.....
next month,
maybe my band, Ignified Sins, will be performing..
i don't know whether or not we are ready...
i myself am not ready so....
anwar have trigger out some unhappiness towards me...
i don't know whats it all about....
he told me to find out myself....
but yet, i don't know.....
to any of you who i had offend...
i really apologise...
i hav a problem of my own which i have to solve...
i hope you guys understand my situation....
lots of you have tried your best to help me...
i really thank you guys from the bottom of my heart....
rosewood had wrote a poem for me and b...
the ones in blue is for me while the ones in pink if for her....
i don't know about her but i had figure out his message...
you guys try to solve it as it is quite meaning full.....
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