fuck fuck fuck.........
haiz... wat m i suppose to say... people have been tellin to move on as wats is told on my tag..
i dunno jus wat to do.. majority may say,"jus move on n forget bout her la... u hurt her too much
n da more u pester her, da more she will hate u.."
i realise dat i hurt her.. bt must she take things for granted?? i noe most grl do...
jus y isit hard for girls to jus forgive n forget.. ya i noe guys dis, guys dat is da reason for them to be like dis.. im jus so curious.. y must girl nowadays take things for granted... like i said in previous post,"they slash their hands n put da blame on da guys who hurt them". is dat wat they do to let out their stress n anger?? i jus wonder...
da fact dat i cant move on n forget bout her is dat i jus love her too much... ive done lots of things with her n bein joyful with her... i noe she hate me for hurtin her upteen time... but i jus cant forget bout her... shes da joy of my life... ibu has hopes... her most highest hope is us.. she want us to be peaceful n loving twards each other.. she jus wan us to be tgher.. but den, we broke her hopes... she feel sad bout everythin... she suffer a great lost.. ibu told dis to me... i dunno whether hidayah noe or nt bout ibu hopes n her feelins bout dis... yea ibu told me to move on too.. she say,"wat has gt in my daughter dat u cant forget bout
her??" well ibu, deres r things dat u can noe n u cant noe bout us even too u guys out dere... also, i wonder y do u guys love to interupt in peoples life?? im nt saying dat its wrong uh but den, cmon la guys... its peoples life... u cant tell them to do things dat they refuse to do rite... bfore u ask people to do dat, u tink for urself... do u like people to tell u wat to do in ur life?? jus tink ok guys...
nw ibu is sick... shes admitted in tan tock seng hospital...im goin to visit her on thurs (if she's still in) wit my chillerz mate which consists of me, aliah, d.b, dzul n kimi... hidayah is part of da family too.... i introduce her to them n make her part of our family
which they really love especially aliah.. god i miss all u chillerz man!! jus wish our pit durin da june or sept holidays is a success...
n oso.. I JUS HATE FUCKING MY FAMILY!!! wateva i do is all a sin to them... like my sis, i ask her to help me to masage my back,
but wat did she say,"ur nt my father so y must i listen to u".. my mum is always naggin at me no matter wat i do... n my dad... wateva i do is wrong to him... i do dis i do dat is all wrong... fuck la!!!! argh..... wat da fuck is wrong with them... if they love me, y cant they jus allow me to be free... y cant i hav a free life like u guys... juz y mus my life be filled with misery... jus y....
so far, only hidayah noe everythin bout my life n family... bt nw.. i lose her... i gt no one to talk to...
jus y mus my life be so fuck up!! jus y!! i want a happy life... i wan a peace family.. i want a lovable grl which is hidayah... dats all i wan n i ask for... nothing else... till here.....
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`SirajKasturi(:
